Muster.Your.Courage

Friday, July 30, 2004

Friday, July 30, 2004

*Thinks back..* Hmm..lets see. Did anything interesting happen to me today? Besides watching 'homerun' for two Chinese periods in the morning, then finding the patience to endure and 'listen' to what Chucky had to say to me during CME period, in the morning somemore (man..she sure knows how to spoil my day, moron) and spending the rest of the school day in the way-to-steep-looking-auditorium-that-gives-your-mind-the-preception-that-you-are-going-to-trip-and-fall-anytime-soon HDB hub, otherwise, my day was booring.

Been on a Yaoi-dling-manga spree lately. I have accmulated a total of 50+ titles (and still counting, mind you.) Heehee..I am such a sinner! Oh wells..

Whee~ my Mom just came home with packets of strawberry *glances at Glor* yogurt drinks! Yummy.. I simply love them. She got it from school and she claims that they have it sold cheaper (at 70cents only) in school compared to the ridiculous pricings (at $1++) at the supermarkets.
*Personal note: I am terribly sorry Glor, but no matter what you say about strawberries, it will alwas be my all-time-favourite-pastime-snack. Much rather like you and your cartons of frutti milk? Hahas*

It's all about Me.

Monday, July 26, 2004

*shuts trustee little yellow diary and cusses loudly* Shite. 'O' levels English Orals is going to start within a week and I have about 4 more weeks before the prelims. Fcuking damn..!

The award winners for Honours Day were called to attend a meeting in the hall this afternoon for a briefing session in the hall and so I went. Waaah~ Let me tell you something, it was so damn malu~ okay! Ms Teo was arranging us in our supposely sitting arrangment and I had to sit at the back and be the last person of my row. That's not so baad. You know what is bad? The fact that I am actually going up to recieve a prize NOT for Maths nor English, nor for Literature, nor any desriable subjects but instead ... Food and Nutrition. How pathetic is that? To make us feel inferior, they positioned us in between the smart alecks (the academic-achievers) and the CCA leaderships award winners. Boy.. talk about demoralising. Ooh.. and you know what? They even gave our subjects a name - *Special Awards* I nearly die rolling my eyes. I am just so ver glad that I am not the only one going through this shite.. I've got Audrey with me...

It's all about Me.

Saturday, July 24, 2004

*sings at the top of her voice* I'll do anything, just to hold you in my arms..
Hahas.Thats like the only line I know from that song.

I realised something gruesome in the morning when I go out of bed. To my utter horry and digust, my left ear's earring went all the way in to the back of the ear hole. In order to get it out, I had to reverse the earring very same way it got it so i had to push it against my open and raw skin. it was damn painful and the process was tediously slooooow. I couldnt stand the excruciating pain and I wailed and cussed and almost wanted to give up. I was thinking: "Pain..pain..pain!!" and was even deciding whether to just leave my earring there until my ear hole evetually gets infected and rots so I can just take the easier way out and go to have an operation to remove it. I evetually took it out (after 1 hr plus of tahaning the pain) and now my ear's all red and the ear hole's all swollen and covered with blood clots. Sick, I tell you. Hahas.

I love today's cooling weather! It's perfect for snuggling up to that someone special. Since I don't have one.. I will have to make do with my darling... bolster!

*At times like these, how I wish you were here beside me. I would join you in bed under the covers while you are already in your slumber, or so I thought. With one elbow plopped on the cushioned pillow to support my forehead, I would admire your peaceful and angelic face whilst you sleep and breathe in time with the gentle tempo of the raise and fall of your chest. You suddenly opened your eyes and focus your gaze at me. My heart skipped a beat and my cheeks flushed, embrassesd now that I am caught red-handed, staring at your amazing face. Without a murmur, you raise your slender arms, enveloped me and bring me down into your warm embrace. You would then hug me in this possessive manner until morning.

"Only in your arms will I find refuge and serernity. Only with you will I be able to gain freedom and experience true happiness. " *

Sighs. Now you know why I can't write lemons....or even churn out a decent compo. lols.

It's all about Me.

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

Something hilarious happened today when I went walked into the Art Mac lab to look for Mr Tan. You see, today was CCA day and I needed to inform him that I had to make a trip down to the hospital with my parents and so I have to leave early. He was standing at the shelves stuffed with art books and was choosing what he needed. The conversaion went on like this:

Me: Heys Mr Tan. I needed to leave early today at 3.15pm cos I needed to go down to the hospital with my parents.
Mr Tan (T): Okay. At least let me finish my briefing first.
Me (M): Uh. *starts to back off and leave*
T: *looks at me strangely and then looks back down at the shelves* You smell like...
M: *questioned look* What..? I smell like...?
T: ........
M: Yes Mr Tan.. I smell like...?
Mrs Zali with another student who were working at her desk: *cast a strange glance towards my direction*
T: *looks up at me again and thought for a little while before he said in a very gentle tone" You smell like lunch."
M: *Sweatpours, stomach growls*

Haahs. I think the reason why he had to stop and ponder before he said what he said was because he knew better than to step on a women's or in my case a maturing screaming emtionally unstable always moody adolescent toe.

The photoshoot today was fantabulous! Will upload or give the links when I eventually get it from Chan.

Also, I did peranakan today's racial harmony day. Erms.. I borrowed the set of clothes from my beloved grandma and I was so pleasantly surprised when I found out that I could actually fit into them! Anyways, I thought that more girls from the class would be dressing up in various costumes because they are usually enthu about occasions like this. To my disappointment, only a handful of us actually bothered. Namely, Chan, Pamela, Veronica and myself. Nisha was supposed to wear her dancing costume but she said that the morning's rain was a bad omen... so she didnt bring it to school. I wore a light apple green hand-sown blouse over a new store bought white supposely petticoat with the traditional baju and boy... it sure was stuffy. When I was sitting in the packed hall, I was pespiring like a hog.. okay. I am probably just a little too gua chang here.. but that was what I felt like there and then. As soon as they release us, I rushed back to class immediately to change into something cooler. I then wore Gloria's black flowing cotton drawstring pants (I simple love them..!) with my paranakan sliver metal belt. I was walking towards the AEP lab for CCA when someone commented that I look so mature and grown up. Hahas.

Oh. Gloria and Chan kept saying that the belt looked really nice...I think so too! Whee.. I think its high tide I invested in a pretty looking belt.. *smiles all around*

It's all about Me.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

To Samantha Tay:
let's just get things straight and out in the open.. Firstly, I was not even talking about you on the tagboard when I replied Sarah. It can mean a lot of things when I say, "My world's more carefree nowadays. Without having two worry much. If you get what I mean" so please do not go all sensitive and paranoid about this and assume I was referring to you.
And if it was really what you said, "well, my mum din say that she don like u, it was just a misunderstanding", then you could have approached me straight away and told me right? but no, you come along and tag my board.. what a very sincereaction. Well, it sure was very heartening to know that you wanted to'bring our friendship back together again' but really, are you sure that the same thing will not happen again?

For so many weeks, you ignored me when I wanted to speak to you.
For weeks, you treated me as if I was a pest, or some invisible being.
Up till now, when I walk in your direction, you turn your back and walk the other way.
You don't even look me in the eye. To even mention my name...
In other words, you treated me like dirt.

Do You know how that feels?
Do You know how it feels to be shunned away by someone who left you so abruptly?
Do You know how it feels like to want some sort of support to cling to when you are at your life's crappiest and getting more depressed by moment?
I have given you everything and in return, all I wanted was a reliable and good friend...

Frankly speaking, I am quite tired of the whole episode. All I want to do now is to forget the whole thing and close this chapter of my life forever.

My life goes on ...
and if you sincerely want to continue with what we had.. you should know what to do.

To shih han: Wah... you ah. Sms me yesterday and I thought that something disatrous has happened. Maa.. I tend to look on the bright side of things now.. And I really do appreicate your friendship. Hope it will last...! *mucks*

It's all about Me.

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

I am not sure why but I suddenly have the urge to say this but I got to make this clear. I pretty like my class for what it is. The people we have consist of siao cha boas to jokers to the serious ones. So if you hear of rumours about me badmouthing you, please go and find out the actual truth before acusing me.

PKW opening went surprisingly well and I am just so glad that I managed to convince Ms Teo to come down and support us. At first I thought I wouldnt be able to handle the questions that equiriers might ask or get a proper and complete sentence across because I tend to get really nervous when I am with crowds. But that didnt happened, not even once. I even managed to mingle and chat with the students' parents and get to know my juniors even better. Chan came down all the way to support me and that felt gooood. To Chan Thanks darling~ It was a real pity that Gloria couldn't come down or it would have been even better. Seriously, if the very same opportunity is given to me again, I would have done it without hesitation... cos it's just this fun!
Anyways, I have a list of people that I have got to thank...

Hans - Even though nowadays the both of us are quite busy with our individual lives and we hardly have a chance to meet up, I still can never forget the crappy jokes you make and good times I spent with you. Errs.. what happened to our 'pool date'?

Liana - Deary~ Missed you so very badly. Got lots of things that I have got to fill you in. If you are reading this, do give me a call and arrange something with me okay? Can't wait.

Tsu - Thanks for being there to give me reassurance time and again that I am being the best I can as the president. Thanks again for supporting and being my voice of reason at times when it came to decision-makings. Lastly, for telling me to lighten up...

Chere - Like I said before.. you look damn sexy eating an ice-cream stick.. Hahas. Thanks for all that creative and beautiful decorating of the CCA board. Even up to now, I still think that the oriental wallpaper aka chinese new year wrapping paper rocks! Thanks again for being the secetary of AA and for all that ta-haning of my nosenses.

Chans - Thanks for trying to cheer me up every time I'm down. Your pressence around me is enough to encourage me to go on with life. Thanks for caring.

Glorieo - Can't thank you enough.... seriously. You are always by my side to give me good sounding advice and to wake me up from my hopeless, dreamless state at times. Yupps.

*YOU* - I think you play the biggest role in my life. You always make time for me even though you have a whole stack of papers to work on. You were always there to offer a shoulder to cry on (literally) and you're like a pillar of support for me. I really do cherish you and hope that one day things might turn out the way I hope it would.

It's all about Me.

Monday, July 12, 2004

Tomorrow's the opening night for the exhhibitation over at Plastique Kinetic Worms. We are expecting a small crowd of about 80 people (including reporters, camera crew, teachers, tons of schools, parents and random curious on-lookers)and I seriously hope that everything goes well tomorrow at the event. You know.. this event has got some sentimental value for me because this would be the last thing I would be doing for the CCA.. and as the President. Like I have mentioned before, I would be stepping down soon and handing over all the duties to the new committee. I really hope that we would choose the new committee wisely because the future does rely on their choices and decisions. As all you frequent readers already know, Arts Alive! is a relatively new CCA (we have only been around for the past one year plus) and one decision will pull down what little foundation the present comittee has set.

*stomach growls* My tummy crying for food.. got to find some..

It's all about Me.

Thursday, July 08, 2004

There is a difference between love, like and crush. Me? I prefer to stay by the sidelines and *admire*.

Found this saying the other day when we were forced to do the SRA kit.. It goes like this:

They who know not, and know not that they know not,
Are fools - shun them.
They who know not, and know that they know not,
Are children - teach them.
They who know, and know not that they know,
Are alseep - wake them.
They who know, and know that they know,
Are wise - follow them.

Quite a tongue twister dont ya think? It took me a while to finally get the real meaning. See if you can do it the first time round.

I am currently in the school com lab3 randoming printing all my beautiful MANAsan's pictures. Now the room reeks of fresh ink and the school's IT head is just walking around. Eeks. I think he knows what I am doing but maa..

The printer here rocks! The pixel is small enough so that it loks natural. Furthermore, the ink her is plently so its PRINT AGLORE! Whhee~..

It's all about Me.

Monday, July 05, 2004

There is a difference between love, like and crush. Me? I prefer to stay by the sidelines and *admire*.

It's all about Me.

Sunday, July 04, 2004

You're Kaido!

Check this out.. Isnt it just too cool? And no, I did not cheat just to get this result.. More tests coming up...

It's all about Me.

Friday, July 02, 2004

The last time I checked my watch, the time was about 7.30pm and I am still in school. Currently in the Art Computer lab working on the editing of Arts Alive! videos. Took a short walk outside just now to rest my eyes and woah! I almost got a shock. The last time when I actually took a breather was like 3 hours ago and when I got out, the skies turned so dark and scary. ookay, 'scary' probably not the most apporiate word to use here but to see such a drastic change within such a short period of time cetainly is shocking, dont you think?

Its definetly not good to sit in front of the damn computer (especially in the school's lab somemore) and editing videos because for one: my eyes gets so tired and red. two: Although the lab is air-conditioned, the area where I am sitting is warm and stuffy. three: I havnt had a bite since recess and mind you, I only had a little bit of Nasi lemak which consist of rice, a slice of fishcake and a 1/5 of a chicken wing. I am positively famished and my poor stomach is growling non-stop. Its so loud that you can even hear it three metres away! Oookay, I am just extraggerating things but my stomach really is growling! I wanna eat.. but the baka's canteen closed early.

Righty. I am like the last student here in the computer lab so I wanna get out of here as soon as possible. *Growls* Oops, you know where that came from... Hahas.

It's all about Me.

Thursday, July 01, 2004

Joke Of the Day

One day, Mr. Caterpillar decided to hitch a ride to town. As he was standing
by the roadside, a family of bees came by in a little car and offered him a
ride
Gratefully, he accepted. After putting along merrily for a few kilometers,
the engine sputtered and the car rolled to a halt. Without saying a word,
Papa Bee alighted and urinated into the fuel intake. When he turned the
starter, the engine started up, much to Mr Caterpillar's amazement!
However, he did not say a word. The car went on for quite some distance
before the engine died again. This time, it was Mother Bee who urinated into
the fuel intake, and again, the car started up after that. The process was
then repeated again for Baby Bee.
By the time the engine died for the fourth time, the little car was only a
few kilometers from town. Not wanting to appear unsophisticated, Mr
Caterpillar got out of the car without a word, and started opening the fuel
cap.
In a flash, Papa Bee got out of the car. "What are you doing?" asked Papa
Bee.
"I'm going to piss in the fuel intake, just like you did", said Mr
Caterpillar.
"Oh, no", said Papa Bee patiently, "that won't do. This car only runs on Bee
Pee (BP)."

It's all about Me.