Muster.Your.Courage

Friday, October 29, 2004

Friday, October 29, 2004

Argh. I have very sore muscles, espically my poor left arm. Went with Dad to the shooting range yesterday morning and attempted to shoot a few rounds and ended up with sore arms. The gun's about 3 kg and its only my second serious attempt to try to shoot. My dad kept telling me to mount (hold the shotgun in position.that means to balance the gun with my "weak, untrained arms" with my left arm supporting the barrel. One word - HEAVY.) and take aim. The whole process (plus the actual shoot aka pullling the trigger) took about 30 seconds. I had to repeat that for about 10 times. It may sound very little to you but if you have "weak, untrained arms" like mine, you too will be having a tough time. *Groans*

Went over to Gloria's house in the evening to study but I had to leave early because I wasnt feeling very well. My stomach's soo bloaty and it had so much air in it that I can't even breathe, yet stand up straight properly. I searched feverishly for my medication but I couldn't even find it so I gave up looking (it didnt take me long to figure that I must have misplaced it somwehere during the last dosage and cussed myself) that I just went to bed. Woke this morning feeling better but I could feel a little bloaty. Must go and search for my mediciation laaater.

It's all about Me.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Aaaargh. I fricking hate the 'o' levels. I want to be stress free... I want to fly.

Took the effort to go to school in the morning for Geography lessons but what a waste of my time. Actually, my sole motivation to go to school was lunch with Amanda so ya. Anyways, she was just doing practically nothing and she kept comparing us with her other Geography classes and complaining how restless we all were. Irritating.

Went for lunch with Amanda.. had a *Yummy, finger-licking, delicious lunch... of course, the company was much sought for too! Hmm, too much carbohdyrates so I am still filling quite full. Told Amanda some stuff and she's clearly taken aback but I know I can trust her muchs. Right Amanda?

About a month to go before the 'O's are over..can't wait.

It's all about Me.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

WOw. I really posted my last entry twice and didn't realise it. Thanks for pointing it out Oreo!

Got this from Amanda's blog. Hope she doesn't mind..

LAST PERSON WHO...
Slept in your bed: Cong. He came over last night
Saw you cry: Hahas. Funny you should you ask cos' concidentally, its Cong too
Made you cry: Don't remember
You shared a drink with: Mom
You went to the movies with: I think that would be with Sam, Shih han, Jerald and his friends
You went to the mall with: 2 weeks ago with Amanda and the twins to eat lunchYelled at you: Mom
Sent you an e-mail: The stupid mail group that I, one didnt sign up for and two, is freaking flooding my mailbox with it

HAVE YOU EVER...
Said "I love you" and meant it?: Yeaps
Danced naked: Rethorical
Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: The last time that happened, it was like dejavu
Wish you were the opposite sex: Hahahas. All the time.
Do you have a crush on someone: Quite a looong time ago, yes
What book are you reading now: My various textbooks
Worst feeling in the world: Unloved and uncared for
Future son's name: Cant be bothered to really think about this sort of stuff now, got more important things at hand now like the upcoming exams
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Used to when I was very very young but now, nopes
What's under your bed: Tons of things.
Favorite sport to watch: Seriously speaking, I prefer to play whateva is showing on the tv then just watching it. Its more fun anyway
Siblings: My invisible chibi with no name. Hahas
Living arangement: Parents
Location: SingaporeCollege plans: Don't think I have what it takes to go there
Piercings/tattoos: Used to have 3 piercings until it closed up on me. Oh, and if you are interesed, I can tell you about each piercing and the story behind it...
Boyfriend/girlfriend: The key word here is 'ever' right? RIght? ..Right?

EXTRA STUFF...
Do you do drugs: Yeaps. For the stomach, headache...
Do you drink: Yeaps
Who is your best friend: God
What are you most scared of: The monster under my bed *Snickers*
What clothes do you sleep in: Clothes? Who said I wear clothes to sleep? Buff is the best! Hahas. Where do you want to get married: Doesn't really matter to me cos frankly speaking, I am more concerned with who am I marrying
Who do you really hate: Doesn't matter.Been in Love: With God? All the time
Do you drive: Nopes, at least legally
Do you have a job: Does being a student count?
Do you like being around people: Pretty much but I am quite the solitude

STUFF...
Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: Yeaps, I guess. Can't remember though
Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: *Confused with the question*
Want someone you don't have right now: Want simply because I don't have or can't have? Don't have, none. Can't have, yes..there is one.
Are you lonely right now: Rethorical
Song thats stuck in your head a lot: None at the moment
Do you want to get married: Don't know. I don't even know if I can live on today
Do you want kids?: Maybe.. cos I like kids. They key word here is KIDS... not babies.

FAVOURITE...
Room in house: I am spending way too much time at home... Uh. That doesn't answer the question right?
Type(s) of music: Anything but rap or hip hopBand(s): Refer to the above
Color: I hate orange, of any shade
Perfume or cologne: Uhh... both?
Month: December
Stone: Uhh.. never really wondered about these sort of things

IN THE LAST 72 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
Cried: Yeaps. Refer to the second question above
Bought something: Bread intended for dinner last night
Gotten sick: Am having a slight headache now. The price you have to pay for late nights.
Wanted to tell someone you loved them: Yeaps.
Met someone new: Yeaps. Last afternoon over at the beauty saloon. Her name was Ivy..pretty nice person
Missed someone: *sighs* That include Gloria, Amanda, Chan (yes, you too!) and others
Hugged someone: Nopes. Sad.
Kissed someone: .....Hmmmm

It's all about Me.

Friday, October 22, 2004

Sometimes I really wonder if my existance means anything to you at all.

Got really annoyed this morning due to reasons I don't want to post
but the bottom line is that I got really really annoyed...and somewhat irritated.
Wanted to go with Amanda to eat but didnt because I had to stay and do Geography in the room.
No offence (to anyone who loves her) but I often get the vibe that *she* is mocking at me and how I am panicking for my 'O' levels.

Went to the toliet for a break and I saw Mr Teh going into his *private* cubicle. hahas. I shouted out to him and this was how the conversation went
Rosie: Hey Mr Teh!
Mr.Teh: (from behind the door) Huh? Hi. Who's that?
Rosie: Oh its me. Rosemary. Remember me?
Mr.Teh: Rosemary. From which class? aah. Is it 4/3?
R: Yaa. I've got a few Maths questions to ask you..
Mr.T: Yah. Okay. Sure.
R: No.. Make that chapters..
Mr.T: *silence*
R: Mr Teh?
Mr.T: Ya okay.
R: Thanks I meet you outside. *flushes toliet and makes her way outside*

Hahas, thinking back I found the whole episode quite hilarious but I apologised to him because I felt it was rather rude to be shouting across the toliet like that..especially when you are doing your business. *snickers*

Oh, he taught me transformation and waaah.. it was reallly amazing how he could squeeze in one whole chapter in like... 50 minutes? He is an absolutely brilliant teacher. Thanks Amanda and Gloria for your advice on seeking for his help!

I.Am.Not.Jealous.What.So.Ever.Idiot.

It's all about Me.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

I'm hungry.

Slept very late last night, at about 5.30am.
Woke up at 11plus
Too late to wash up and go to school.
I don't think I would want to rush too
considering the fact that I get super grumpy when I sleep that late the night before.
Sorry Chere, will go to school tmr and get the t-shirt from you.

I am really hungry.
In fact, I was already hungry the night before
but didn't get anything to fill my stomach with because there's no food at home.
Should I go downstairs to the nearby Kopitam to get lastnight'sdinnercumbreakfastcumlunch, order pizza or takeout, maggie mee (yucks!..tons of MSG) or should I just forget about it?

It's all about Me.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

I am a terribly emtional person.
And it gets worse especially on cold, rainy nights.
Like this one.

I called a couple of friends within the last hour and they are either busy, tired or with someone else.
Then again, I cannot blame them because they have their own lives to run. ~~How I wish I have someone~~

Was thinking a bit.
About O levels, regrets, things that I should have done, mistakes I shouldnt have made (due to my stupidity and insecurity).

*Stares towards the skies* Aah.. the sky's all clear tonight. Dark, deep shade of blue. It looks almost void, empty, eternity. Hmm..I wonder whats it like in heaven?

It's all about Me.

Sunday, October 17, 2004

- Deleted post -

After much persuation (from Duckie), I have decided to take down this post in case its too offensive for others.
Sorry for the inconvience caused.

It's all about Me.

Saturday, October 16, 2004

Just a few lovely pictures that I have on my diary. I simply love them.. really cute drawings by fellow classmates. Go..click on the links and be amazed..

Chan's version of a cat chasing after Tako-octopus

Amanda's lovely drawing of her darling Sanzo!!

Brigitta and her craziness for scoceer

Christina and her craziness for Goku

Gloria's piece

Tsu's drawing

Another of Chan’s

It's all about Me.

Saturday, October 16, 2004

I should be studying now. In fact, my nose should be stuck to my textbook with every single second that I've got on my hands if I want to pass 'O' levels. Then why am I still online blogging?

Since there isn't any school today, I went over to church in an attempt to study. I simply cannot study at home because of all the temptations. The tv..computer..yaoimangas..thefridge..baileys..movies..and the list just goes on. *Fiddles with fingernails. I think I need to cut them. They's way too long.* Oops. Being random here. Like I was saying, I went over to church and saw some aunties doing flower arrangements for the altar. Wahh, the flowers were so beautiful! They were lilies, ginger, carnations and ferns, all in shades of pink and red. I also learnt how to "massage" the carnations so that they can open and blossom at a faster rate. All you have to do is to gently press and rub the sepal area. Do it in circular motions. (Man, that sounded wrong. Sounded like I was doing something else... suggestive heh?) You are supposed to do it with gentle and loving care but I was handling the flowers so roughly (please read along the lines of me not being the patient sort) that it seemed as though I was bruising the pretty little flower. Poor thing. I stopped and gave up in the end because I just couldnt bare to watch all the flowers, which were so brutally handed by me, to wilt in two days time..

Since I was already in church, I went to attend the evening mass. It was memorial mass for some guy named David. Some lady played the piano and it sounded sooo nice! Ayioh but the lady singing on the mike spoilt the whole thing because her singing was bad. She liked to pull her notes and is always coming in at the wrong beats. It was so irritating but I cannot blame her because she isnt trained in the area of singing. However, it would be better if she could pass the mike to someone who can sing and lead the congregation.. sheesh. It somehow just pulled the atmosphere down a few notches.

Went for dinner at Swensens with my parents. Had a lovely time there and I was pretty much amused. My mom was like praising Swensens for their cooking because she finds the food there really nice. Wells, I find it rather ...tasteless and bland. I guess its just my tastebuds acting up on me. I havnt had much appetite for the past few days though I have crazy craving for all things unhealthy for the body. Eg. Potato chips, jelly beans, lime mentos, vanilla ice-cream, pocky chocolate sticks, ribena drinks, teaspoons and teaspoons of beef brovil.. okay, I think you've gotten the picture. Hmm.. you know what I think? I think I am undergoing through some kind of stress.. lols. That sounded almost funny and wrong..

List of things I want to accomplish after my 'O' levels:
- Re-create and design my room. And possibly, paint my walls too!
- Do some serious shopping (and burn a hole in my pocket in the process)
- Got to get out of Singapore..got to get out of this cramped up place.. Need nature...
- Do a nice painting or drawing
- Go visit the Night Sarfari with friends
- Have sleepovers over at other ppl's houses cos mine's waay to small..
- Sleep over at the beach
- Possibly get a job so I dont have to end up being a usless couch potato
- Get the new Sims2 and play it from dawn to dusk everyday. Aargh. I love simulation games and I want Sims2 sooo very badly!!!
- Take lots of photographs. Hopefully I can get to do what I eventually want to do... I wanna take photos of ......... people. Yea. Fill in the blanks yourself.

Yeap. Thats basically the list.

It's all about Me.

Thursday, October 14, 2004

Cutie

It's all about Me.

Sunday, October 10, 2004

Wahhhh.. they are not showing my favourite movie today on local tv.
Anyone heard of Mists of Avalon?
It was writtern by Marion Zimmer Bradley and then later made into a film.
Got this summary about the book from Amazon.com.. "Here is the magical legend of King Arthur, vividly retold through the eyes and lives of the women who wielded power from behind the throne."
The original duration of the movie is about 183 minutes and two parts of it has already been aired
I think next week would be the last one..
Wouldnt want to miss it for the world!
Hold on.. NNNOOOOOO!! I just remember something! Next week's Third Saturday and I have to go for healing mass. That means I gotta be down in church from 3pm til 10pm. *groans*

You know, I have seriously given up on asking ~~Mrs. Mah~~ for extra Maths lessons.
The last few times I have asked her, she told me to go find her after school.
That is excatly what I did and I always cannot find her.
She is always in the rush to go home... Aargh.
And I dont see how I can improve on my Maths when I dont even know the concept of the damn problem sums. Irritating.

For the past two days of school, I sat at the back of the class.
You see, I was originally sitting right smack in front of the white board
and I got so tired (or rather, my poor neck was aching) of having to keep looking up at the screen when a transpency was flashed
that when Chan invited me to sit next to her at the back of the class, I couldnt resist.
On Friday, the class attendance was quite terrible because a lot of people didnt turn up.
So seats were vacant and everyone else (except a few who didn't want to move their lazy bums, including me) moved up to the front.
Clearly, there was like a divison between the students and when Mr Yap noticed this, he said, ''Is there some kind of war happening? Why is there a divison?"
It sure was hilarious.

Time for some over-dued shoutouts:

Char - Heys! Thanks for popping by occasically!

Liana - Miss you too! *mucks*

It's all about Me.

Saturday, October 02, 2004

My study desk was so messy with plies of books and papers
that I got so fed yesterday decided to clear it all away
Filed my papers, neatly arranged my books on the selves
Ahh.. now it is more pleasing to the eye.

I didnt go to school for the past two days because I was sick
Heard from several people that Mac Low was arrowing at me, at my faults actually
From Chan, she quoted from her "Rosemary is anchoring there and not improving
..because she likes to daydream and not copy down notes"
.Bull.shit.
Just because I was not concentrating in her class once and she caught me
she atomatically presumes I do it all the time.
I hate people who acts like this.
There is another person who acts exactly like her... Chucky.
She likes to presume matters (go ahead and ask those who have been her victims of shelling before.. they will agree with me)
Ironically, Chucky just come and confronted me about me presuming this and that. Ha!
She and Chucky and the best-est of friends
Quote from Chan again "Its no wonder that they rub off each other" Hahas.
I told that to Gloria over the phone
and she laughed her heads off
I think she took the message the wrong way.

For the past two days that I was not in school
Like I mentioned before, I was sick
Was down with flu and eventually fever
My father decided to play doctor and gave me random medicine
and it worked.
Since everything is self-medicated
I didnt make a trip down to the doctors.
That means that I did not obtain a MC
which means I am going to give a letter to Chucky on Monday
which also means she is going to question and scold and spoil my day.
~~Fuck.I.hate.her.~~

It's all about Me.