Muster.Your.Courage

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Sunday, October 23, 2005

I was so happy when I was on your to-call list before your outfield. 7 days you will be non-contactable, you said. Told you I will miss you and you said whatever nonchalant-ly.

What a cruel slap in my face!

I thought I wanted to wish you the best, from the bottom of my heart, yet you took it dis-regardingly.

Guess what?
I HOPE IT RAINS!

Quote of the day
M***** says:
"nothing worse than having it rain every day when you're outfield. Been there, done that. ORD here I come!"

It's all about Me.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Somehow, I feel as though this blog isn't as private as it used to be.All along, I havn't been truthfully blogging what I really feel like saying. Guess a part of me is afraid to let the world know what I truly feel. Then again, if I were to blog truthfully, friendships and relationships alike will be destroyed. So why take the risk. It is also because of this that I have stopped blogging as frequently. I feel like closing down this blog and start a new, private blog.
A webspace whereby only a few selected close friends can have access too.

THEN, I can really blog how I feel.

It's all about Me.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

I.need.to.breathe.
I have so much kept inside me.
I.need.to.relax.
I feel like having a drink now.
And it's only 11am on a Wednesday morning.

It's all about Me.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Lesson learnt today: "Wanting is one thing, being desperate Is Another."
That is the nick on my msn today.
Sometimes you want something so badly that you set up a mental barrier that prevents you from reaching your goal. A good example would be, you are dining in a restaurant with your friend. You see this cute boy sitting at the other end of the eatery. You like what you see but because you are scared of asking for his number, you ask your friend to do it. In the end, the boy would probably take you as a wimp and be interested in your friend instead.

Then you proceed to think, why didn't I go ahead and do it?
Dare to try.
Things might turn out different.
After all, you wouldn't know until you have tried.
Have no regrets because you only live once.

By the way, the above example was not made up by me. Thanks Hans!

It is only when you are confident, you are beautiful.
It is only when you are comfortable in your skin, you are beautiful.
It is only when you are courteous, you are beautiful.
It is only when you know how to carry yourself well, you are beautiful.
It is only when you look, you look beyond the surface, you are beautiful.
It takes more then just the face to look beautiful.
Feel beautiful.
After all, one can always count on inner beauty right?

It's all about Me.

Monday, October 03, 2005

My chest hurts.
And I am not talking about the type you get when you are read a sad story, or recieve a piece of bad news or an angsty-teenage hurt.
I am talking about feeling tons of sharp little needles poking at the sides of my left ribcage.
Could that be a sign of coming else to come?
The last time I had this hurt was when I was running around in secondary school during PE.
I remember telling this to my PE teacher but she just said that I have a weak heart.
All I have to do is to exercise more.
To train it to be stronger.
I have heard of stories whereby people die of heart attack when they are running for their buses.
Will I be one of them?
Can you imagine....

Will you miss me?

I want to feel beautiful.
I need to feel beautiful.
Make me beautiful.

It's all about Me.